Depression...

Lately I've been feeling very depressed, and I cannot stop crying. Every morning my husband goes off to work and I go watch USTVnow, watch some Pennsylvania tv and catch up on Facebook as a newspaper. I see so many people having fun, doing things I only wish I could, no job, one income, tight budget, no real luxuries allowed, except the freebies my husband gets working for the media.  I'm in my pj's most of the day, I used to think that would be an awesome thing, it can be, if you win lotto, but in reality, it sucks big time. I've tried to make friends, but most people have kids and all I have is my fluffy T. I miss having daily conversations with people, I now know why the old ladies would do their banking on a daily basis and talk your ear off, they do that to keep themselves sane, to get some sort of communication or else they become those reclusive cat ladies. I want to go to the beach, I can't, because petrol is $1.63 a litre which is $6.27 a gallon and we can only afford to put fuel in one car.  I need to get an oil change, and again, I cannot afford it. I've never been in this situation and it makes me shake with sadness. I don't care about things anymore, don't want to leave the apartment at all, don't really feel like eating anything, thought of food make me nauseous.  I just spotted a bottle of Bermuda Pink Sand on my desk and it makes me long for the days I could afford to go on cruises or go visit my relatives in Croatia, I can't even go visit my parents. It's just not fair.